Thursday, December 8, 2011

J. Edgar

success she tells me the air of competition
and I realize what has been sorrowfully absent
having been where I’ve been studied where I’ve studied
excelling without every really trying
what a fucking joke
no no no no a fire has been lit a seed planted a vineyard sown
in my own library of Congress

Monday, December 5, 2011

nowhere man

John and his insecurity
            his kindness
            including us all
            ‘isn’t he a bit like you and me?’
            lurching around in the dusk
            grown restless
            all he needs all he seeks all he wants
            is all that he writes for
            is all that he sings desperately about
            with crying eyes
            beneath a bloated neck
            and a ragged sprawl of hair
the girl the woman the ocean child with the fire off the reef
seashell eyes                     windy smile
                        holds me
how can I live without knowing that somewhere in the world John Lennon is alive?
knowledge that flooded incessant days
with magic
a relationship triggered by the simple word ‘yes’
something positive an upsurge for once in a belonely time
he’s buried ‘neath concrete in Central Park
and I get the feeling elsewhere
a smile a dance a quietly strummed guitar a girl
a circle drawn

Anyway Anyhow Anywhere

Long before the steel crashed over him,
enclosing him in a tomb of musky smoke
and grimy ash, my uncle attended
a legendary concert performed by the Who. 
Six years before I emerged in a storm of 
floodlights and blood, Ari watched as Pete

Townshend wind-milled his arms in
his trademark flail, eyes glazed over, while
Roger Daltrey whipped his cables around the
air through the lull in between verses.The shrieks
of John Entwistle’s pyrotechnics on the colorful,
fuzzy bass guitar didn't leave my uncle’s gushing lips
for weeks as he walked to class

along the autumn-tinged lawns of Cooper
Union where he'd roil in the underbelly
of applied physics. Books tucked in
the crook of his arms sagged as he'd recount
to thin-lipped friends the heights of the night.             
                                                 In his own
way he rose phoenix-like above the pottery shard
arrangements of a harried, shuffled youth
into a narrow frame where he could settle down
in relative comfort.                       Tears shed
over the news of Lennon’s murder led to slammed
doors opening the gates to raised eyebrows and
mouths curling with concern, though never to any

search above and beyond.  It wouldn’t have helped him,
he was a pilot, an anarchist of the
most skilled sort, a juggler adept at balancing the
squiggles of Homer with the psalm-like
jeremiads of Zimmy, all the while keeping
an eye on the progressing discoveries of Rob Laughlin.

and then
all of a sudden
he was gone
in a plane
somewhere over a mountain
       and me
       how I feel inside
       can’t explain

Thursday, November 17, 2011

From the Rock in Fort Tryon (Part II)

party people in the place to be
         you are now in the midst of a real MC
                   throw your hands in the air if you real as me
it was on a rock where she told me do I have to say it aloud and I hadn’t even looked around to question it her smile but I felt the swell within I think I’ve come to a good place I heard and smiled all the while ringing through my head             ‘did I mention that the sweater was a Jeremy Scott?’ were the sounds of her as we walked down circling my shoe soaked      she scaled the rocky wall with ease I led the way up to the rock wandering around the French turrets her voice distorting my summer her charm her hand on my arm
no
not yet (not not yet)
continuing in words speech people I must meet
communities to break in to
and there it was
the lifting of confusion
leading to
an overwhelming conclusion
           
Oh it’s so simple, I fear.
I want all the world to see we’ve met.

body and soul

my love sings to me
from the streams of Syldavia
                                                                        where emeralds line  
                                                                        a path to the sea
there we pound
on the drums of Arabia
                                                                        while my lost archive eyes
                                                                        reel in the concrete
she’s always here
she’s apart of me
                                                                        she’s always here
                                                                        she’s inside me

Sunday, November 13, 2011

in the dawn beside me

I was hung up on how her hair flowed so free
in the cool naked light of a gently pulsing space
then she yawned            sweeping gracefully down garden steps
that only she could see
and I got hung about                        the nothing                        John promised me
because everything was real                        and it all lasted forever
there we were by the Dakota as nameless numbered crowds mourned
and I felt the thump of the drums the braying of cymbals the cowering snare
Ringo came near

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

From the Rock in Fort Tryon

I hear the soft strains of music fill the fleeing morning,
my face blurry in the candle-lit dawn. I turn inside,
facing the room where my love and I have lain…
…and see the cats, cross the roof, mad in love, scream into the drainpipes they sit in,
and it is I who am ready
to listen, never tired, never sad, never hidden.